心烦之时

请允许我用英文……

School started already, and i not so sure whether i am ready or not.
After this 2 days attending the lecture class, i start wondering: am i choosing the right course??
i start to think that this chinese things really do not suit me the most.
the major reason is i dislike the history things. Need to memorize so much of things, from beginning to the end. Headache!!
Besides, i'm not really like to do kajian.
I just want to be a journalist, thats all i want. I want to talk, to report what i found, unveil the truth, be alive.

And one more thing: i suddenly became the course rep.
I'm not sure whether i can make it or not.
I doubt my ability, my potential, and my every thing.

The very last time i be a monitor, was just because i got an excellence result; then i be a leader again was just because i am friendly, i know lot a people. And now, why i become a leader again? I have no idea...

Am i in the right place now??
Who can tell me??

谢谢……